If you asked me 5 months ago what sin addiction was, I would point to drugs and alcohol. It’s so much more than that. I’m addicted to my anger. Do you think I like the look of hurt on my kids’ faces when I’m angry or the look of disappointment on my husband’s face when he is reminding me to control it? It’s a compulsion that, at times, I feel powerless to stop (That doesn’t excuse it but it does illustrate the importance of the addiction label.) I’ve always envied others who are happy. Man! What it must feel like to see things with positivity!
When I was 5 I was hit by a car. I was in a coma for 3 days. My mom said I woke up angry. That was the start and, as I grew up, it was my normal. Because it hit at such a young age, my normal was just status quo. I didn’t think I needed to change it and if others didn’t like it then they can find someone else to hang out with. “This is who I am and I can’t change that.” My flesh gave into the anger. I had no idea that it could be changed and that I was living with a debilitating addiction.
So back to my question…what is sin addiction? It’s letting your sin have control of your life. We are called to give that control to God (Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5 NLT). He made you. Your days are numbered. Why would we want to waste time doing a job we are not qualified to do…his job?
If you don’t know how to surrender control and trust God, I would suggest abiding daily. Pray without ceasing (1 Thessalonians 5:17), read the Bible, and believe that Jesus is the only one who can/has secured your place in Heaven.
If you don’t own a bible or struggle to find time to read, download the free app. It has an audio feature. Listen to it being read to you while you work or on your commute every day.
Here’s some scripture to get you started…
6 We know that our old sinful selves were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in our lives. We are no longer slaves to sin. 7 For when we died with Christ we were set free from the power of sin. Romans 6:6-7 NLT
And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. Romans 7:18 NLT
23 Then he said to the crowd, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross daily, and follow me. 24 If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.” Luke 9:23-24 NLT
I love you and can’t wait to see you again!
Diane
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